i'm about two steps away from where i need to be (give or take)

party monster is a totally underrated movie.

everything feels like square pegs being shoved into round slots.
nothing fits.
keep seeing people as little more than apes with paychecks.
my perception is off, but is it really.
the ones who can see the wheels we run in everyday are the first ones we call crazy.
do we count the steps back on the road of evolution.
we live fastlane lives so we can leave decorated corpses.
in the ocean of media, noone will even remember you if you can't be bothered to make a splash.
on a scale from mother theresa to hitler, where will your mark be plotted.
where will my mark fall.

short sleeve winters and rained out christmases.
i was born in the wrong climate.
i cant find my cheer.
the joy of the season alludes me.
the tree, the lights, the decorations, the songs, nothing gets to me.
traded in my hopes of a white winter for a season full of blues.

i need to get out of here.
this city, my head, my monotony, its all the same.
spike my drink with spirit cause i am all out.