shot through the heart, and youre to blame, you give me a bad name.

i listened, but i didnt listen.
heard, but didnt process.
jealous words from a bitter ex.
or so i let myself think.
'theyll use you. theyve done it a hundred times before'
lalalala.
'they treat people like you like objects, use them until they stop serving a purpose.'
i cant hear you.
heard it from their own lips.
didnt want to believe it.
you were supposed to be better than this.
spend the night crying, couldnt even tell you why.
but you knew.
not good enough, you know, the usual.
didnt let myself think youd want to let me go.
thought wed prove them wrong.
thought id prove them wrong.
the house always wins with odds stacked so high.
the ex comes back to tell me i was better than you.
so refreshing it blew my mind.
noone stands up for me.
so the tables turn and now im talking to the ex about being broken hearted.
cut to two years ago and it was you where he was standing, listening to how the first crushed me.
what went wrong?
give till it hurts.
if it doesn't youre not doing it right.
short term girl.
its all ill ever be.
a boy with his boat will have no time for me.
lure me into a comfort zone, place heels over head, and pull the trigger.
youd think id see this coming by now.
but i never learn.
this time will be different.
this time will be different.
this time youll be different.
this time ill be different.
but the song always keeps the beat of the one before it.
get lost in a rhythm until i cant see my way out.
and i am back here.
again.
it cant be you ever, not when its so obviously me.