to feel no more bitterness forever

when you cannot stop smiling even when you want to
this is for you
think of it not so much as leaving for good
instead, we left somewhere else to make it here
and we live we laugh we learn we lust and we lose
and then we carry on to where all of it is irrelevant
and sometimes
sometimes
i cant help but wonder
do i feel bad that you left
or do i feel the sting of envy that it was not me
subtract our boldest and brilliant and toss them into the night sky
so that even our darkest nights arent quite so bad
shine on sad stars
shine on